why would i blog again?

I just decided a minute ago to post a topic again to this blog. I tried not to and I stopped before but now here I go again. One major reason is jub's blog, I dont know why but as I read those posts from poot I come to realize that its not good to blame a blog posts to ruin a plan. I don't know. When I had my biggest down fall way back June2009, I blame this stupid blog. If only this blog has history system on it, you may find out the reason but alas for coz it doesnt.

I'm working now in a call center. Some people say its good coz I earn more than a public employee could get. But for me? It's toxic. I just enjoy the feeling of having the job that other person is aiming, is wishing, to have and ofcourse the "bucks" that I get from it. I enjoy it but I always come to think that this is not what I dreamed. This is not what I longed or wished to have. This is not where should I be working at. This sucks and I get rid of those bull**** customers that are calling and calling you ridiculous.

I'm sorry to dissapoin you about the call center field. But its true. It's just a matter of having the courage to go to work every night and wearing those gadgets and converse with people you don't even know. But honestly speaking, I am enjoying it. I told myself that Ill be good at it. I told myself that I'm here coz I'm way different from other people. I'm here to discover new things that I'm not used to do before. I'm trying to live a more complicated independent life.

SO,why would I blog again? It's because blogging is now my bff. I don't have with me my friends. They're miles away. And even if I text or call them every day, I can't still express out what I feel every other day...every other hour or minute.Oh, I'm being too personal with this post. Don't worry, I'll try to post some interesting topics during my spare time.:)