| I never treat my life as bitter. I describe it as fun and jolly. But let me just express out how I feel today cuz of something that made me feel sad. I really wanted to have someone to talk to. Thanks to a friend of mine where she consoles me when she noticed that sad look in my eyes.(pano kaya nila napapansin?may slogan ba na nakasulat sa mata na malungkot ka pag nakikipag-usap sa kanila?I find 't weird cuz I paint my face with a smile but there she goes...noticed the bitterness I am feeling)Moving forward, I know you're clueless bout what I am saying and let me just talk to this pc now to ease some pain in deep. Let me begin with few questions here: 1.] Sino may alam diyan na psych?baliw na kasi ako... 2.] Pano ba makipag-usap sa multo? 3.] Kung bibigyan kang pagkakataon...makikipag-usap ka ba sa multo? 4.] How would you stay positive if all things that you think are in contrast with what you believe in? 5.] Kung magpapakamatay ba ako may mapapala ako?(alam ko wala..pero what if?) 6.] Pano ka matutulog kung hindi ka pinapatulog ng isip mo? 7.] Pano mo paglalabanan ang hirap o pighati na nadarama ng iyong puso kung hindi mo maramdaman na may puso ka? 8.] Nawawala ba ang puso? 9.] Kung mawala ang puso mo saglit,hahanapin mo ba 'to? 10.]Sabi nila naririnig daw ni Lord lahat ng prayers ng sansinukob...malapit na kaya para i-entertain niya mga hiling ko? 11.]Pano ko malalaman na malapit na niyang sagutin mga hiling ko? Naku! Unfair kasi walang notification kung accepted o rejected ang mga f-in-ile mong request? I have the answers to those questions.I'm just so damn confused about it.It feels so bad when you need someone and she's out of reach. It hurts so much when you miss someone and you'll never ever get the chance to talk to her. It hurts when you know that the person that you owe your life from will never have the chance to feel your embrace. It hurts so much when you miss those arms that helds you in times of sorrow. It's freakin difficult to accept that no matter how you stay positive over things you still end up having tears cuz you are aware that you can not be with her anymore. It aches deep inside how you long for someone and have that fact that she'll not come back. It really hurts when you miss every lil thing about her and cant do anything about cuz you are bound to accept the truth. It really hurts! Damn! Happy Birthday!:[ |
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
on acceptance...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
gettin too busy
I never got a life that's too busy as it is now. I used to waste my time before on silly things like roamin' around the mall, 5-hours-internet-surfing, sleeping, goin to school to meet attendance requirements and basically fooling around. I never value time coz I live life to the fullest. I live life as it is. I live to have fun and to satisfy myself with the things that I love to do. I live the way I wanted without people mandating me on what to do.
Though my parents are strict and keeps telling me to do things appropriately, I don't follow them (well, if I think that it's not worth to be followed) and just do what I think. I don't believe in "baka pagsisihan ko sa huli ang mga ginagawa ko"... well, I don't make things that I would end up blaming myself of its cons. I know that everything I do is in accordance with I feel, think and perceive... (wait wait..perceive?does it include the way I feel?hmm..) I know that everything that I do is right and if it's not (for others...) well I do not blame myself for it cuz on the first place I'm the one who commit it. I just add’t as one learning tool that so that I'll not do ’t again.
But now? Yes, I live to the fullest still but I get too busy that I don't see myself doing things that I'm used to before. I don't know. My life now is busy-boring-robotic. Busy cuz I need to do well with my work and have to attain good evaluations. Even if I'm off from school, it feels like I'm still studying (double the research or assignment stuff in school) cuz I need to know every little thing about what I'm telling to those (BULL****) customers. In that way I'll not mislead them. Boring cuz I'm bound too do what alters my principle. I need to be kind to them and follow every little policy that is written and is governed by their LAW. I can't exercise my own belief. Good thing is I can address what I truly feel the way I stare at them (makuha ka sa tingin…haha!)—and that in some way makes me feel good. Robotic may mean I do same thing that I do every other night.
Well, the good side is I know how to be more independent ( pakipansin ang quantifier na ginamit ko dito…which means I’m independent before!hehe). I no more rely on my sibs and parents. I live alone and it feels good cuz whatever happens I need to resolve‘t by my own. I don’t know if it’s fine cuz I miss them at times. But I look at it in an encouraging way… they say if you’ll look every thing in its good side, you’ll not feel awful. Well, what do you think?
Sunday, November 8, 2009
re-post for modification...
Why Do We Fall in Love?
"It is better to have loft and lost than to never have loft at all." — Groucho Marx
Q: What motivates people to seek out love?Falling in love is a magical experience that happens between two people. So why do people fall in love?
A: Our primary motivation as human beings is to expand the self and to increase our abilities and our effectiveness. One of the ways we accomplish this is through our relationships with other people. We have learned in our research that it is important to feel that you have the ability to be an effective person, especially in our relationships.
Q: How does this theory of self-expansion explain the process of falling in love?
A: Usually, we fall in love with a person that we find attractive and appropriate for us, but also someone who demonstrates that they are attracted to us. This creates a situation where a great opportunity is open to us for self-expansion. The fact that they are attracted to us offers a significant opportunity — when we perceive this, we feel a surge of exhilaration!
Q: Does it always work this way?
A: No, an interesting exception to this occurs if we feel badly about ourselves. The process gets thrown off if we can't believe that another persons finds us attractive — like the Groucho Marx joke where we don't want to belong to a club that would have us for a member. We tend to miss out on opportunities for falling in love if we don't feel good about ourselves.
Q: What conditions are best for meeting someone and falling in love?
A: When you meet someone under conditions that are highly arousing — a political demonstration, turbulence on a plane, a stimulating performance — a time when the body is stirred up and excited, we tend to experience attraction at a heightened level. This effect is well documented but the explanations for it are very controversial. I tend to believe that we come to associate the arousal of the situation with this person and our own self-expansion.
Q: When do we fall in love?
A: Contrary to what most people think, the statistics show that most people fall in love with someone that they have known for a while. People only report falling in love quickly about 1/3 to 40 percent of the time. Of course, this varies from culture to culture. Falling in love happens differently between cultures but it does occur in most cultures.
Q: How does our appearance factor into the equation of falling in love?
A: This is interesting; we have found that if you are very unattractive, it can hurt you a lot in forming romantic relationships. However, being attractive doesn't help that much.
Q: How do you explain that?
A: We have found that two important characteristics, kindness and intelligence, are extremely important in the process of falling in love. And attractiveness is not connected to these things. These two attributes are things that people learn about someone from knowing them over time. Intelligence is important in all aspects of life, especially in love. But kindness is the strongest indicator for a successful long-term relationship.
Q:Why do we need to fall in love if we just end up crying?
A:(answer ain't yet known)
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I end this up without an answer to the question above way back in March. Now, I can face 't. Sometimes, we just need to feel the aches and pain of having it coz we are trying to be mature. We long for someone we think that would make us the happiest and most contented person in the world just to have them. But ironically, we need to suffer. We need to feel the hurts of expecting for something (that now I learned we shouldnt!) and have it healed through time and have this realization that not all that we see can be heard...not all that we feel may be spoken...not all fragrances could be touched. Well, moral of the story is: some time in our lives we need to be crazy and dumb for that one crap and after just continue living. Ayun. Minsan nga lang talaga kelangang magpakatanga ka para alam mo kung pano magpapakatalino sa iisang bagay na 'yun pagkatapos. Tagos. Tumatagos. Tatagos. TUMAGOS. Now, I am certain that I'm now over with the past tense of the feeling I had whem I lost someone. Yipee! Cheers!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
what about it?
I never loved reading books until I learned how it takes to a person to be great.I'm not saying I'm great coz I read but I feel great whenever I read books.There are lotta reasons how it makes me feel great. That's basically made me hooked up from having those leaves of books be at my side always. I never mind what's the title or who's the author but I'm up to how it brings impact to my life. I just find myself thinking of the scenes(if there are) of the stories from novels that I read.
I read "Orosa-Nakpil:Malate" a week ago and until now I still have those reactions(violent or crucial) for the setting,plot and specially the characters of the novel. It's a filipino novel that my nuna Sarah let me borrow. It's all about HIV-AIDS and a story of a giga-sexual. How he found true love despite of having confusions about his personality. I love the way the author wrote it coz he made me feel sad,happy,mad and fell in love to the book itself. I don't know if it's because of the story or how the story makes similarity to my life. I see myself to one of the characters on that novel....and I think that's the main reason why I did not sleep over night just to finish reading.
If you have read that novel, you will see myself as "Angelo". One who's a martyr lover. One who'll give up everything just to show my love and affection to a person(whew!we're becoming serious here..hehe).I don't know if you'll understand me(well, I don't care if you do, I have here this freedom of sayin what I feel now..alas to you!:)
I read "Orosa-Nakpil:Malate" a week ago and until now I still have those reactions(violent or crucial) for the setting,plot and specially the characters of the novel. It's a filipino novel that my nuna Sarah let me borrow. It's all about HIV-AIDS and a story of a giga-sexual. How he found true love despite of having confusions about his personality. I love the way the author wrote it coz he made me feel sad,happy,mad and fell in love to the book itself. I don't know if it's because of the story or how the story makes similarity to my life. I see myself to one of the characters on that novel....and I think that's the main reason why I did not sleep over night just to finish reading.
If you have read that novel, you will see myself as "Angelo". One who's a martyr lover. One who'll give up everything just to show my love and affection to a person(whew!we're becoming serious here..hehe).I don't know if you'll understand me(well, I don't care if you do, I have here this freedom of sayin what I feel now..alas to you!:)
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i got these from facebook
DORAEMON QUOTE:
MINE:Ang talagang makakapagpasaya sa atin ay yung taong naging dahilan kung bakit tayo nalungkot.
FROM JELI:
Nobita: Doraemon, meron ka ba diyang gamit yung mapapasagot ko agad si Shizuka?
Doraemon: Meron.
Nobita: Ah pahiram ako!
Doraemon: Ayoko nga!
Nobita: Ang damot mo! Bakit naman?!
Doraemon: Kung tunay kang nagmamahal, hihintayin mo sya kahit gaano pa katagal.
SocialInterview:
From Nat:
SocialInterview.com asked me: "If you had to invent a new nickname for Mark Joseph Rendon, what would it be?" I answered: "squeertykoy...kz nman mahilig xa sa math kaya from the word squareroot hahaha..."
From Jelipers:
SocialInterview.com asked me "What will Mark Joseph Rendon be doing in 10 years?
I answered: "ayun...di ko alam. haha. pero maganda future neto.. kasing ganda ko.. harhar!"
Status Comment:
sometimes,we expect on something that we think that will certainly happen.and it hurts so much when the thing that you expected didn't go through.damn feeling.i hate 't.
Which career style best fits you?
Mark Joseph Rendon haha/mediator..nice...i cant find reasons why im on the floor taking calls and this stuff tries to put a tick on my mind that i should pursue my plans of going back(to study)..well...there will be a right time to go back.**winks*
NOTE:I really find these things sorta funny. That's why I wanna share 't with you guys. I'm trying to put up a good story here but I don't why it does not come out.(nagdadahilan...:/) Hope you'll just enjoy reading these stuff and try to comment back. It's Monday again...busy day for most of us.(naku!ba't ba ang baho dito sa net shop na napuntahan ko!)I need to go. I have a lotta things to do!(hiding the FACT na kelangan ko na ng oxygen para makahinga!ang bahoooooo!)xoxo
MINE:Ang talagang makakapagpasaya sa atin ay yung taong naging dahilan kung bakit tayo nalungkot.
FROM JELI:
Nobita: Doraemon, meron ka ba diyang gamit yung mapapasagot ko agad si Shizuka?
Doraemon: Meron.
Nobita: Ah pahiram ako!
Doraemon: Ayoko nga!
Nobita: Ang damot mo! Bakit naman?!
Doraemon: Kung tunay kang nagmamahal, hihintayin mo sya kahit gaano pa katagal.
SocialInterview:
From Nat:
SocialInterview.com asked me: "If you had to invent a new nickname for Mark Joseph Rendon, what would it be?" I answered: "squeertykoy...kz nman mahilig xa sa math kaya from the word squareroot hahaha..."
From Jelipers:
SocialInterview.com asked me "What will Mark Joseph Rendon be doing in 10 years?
I answered: "ayun...di ko alam. haha. pero maganda future neto.. kasing ganda ko.. harhar!"
Status Comment:
sometimes,we expect on something that we think that will certainly happen.and it hurts so much when the thing that you expected didn't go through.damn feeling.i hate 't.
Which career style best fits you?
Mark Joseph Rendon haha/mediator..nice...i cant find reasons why im on the floor taking calls and this stuff tries to put a tick on my mind that i should pursue my plans of going back(to study)..well...there will be a right time to go back.**winks*
You know the rules and you know right and wrong. Still, everything is grey and you know how to work within the fuzzy lines. You are the mediator, and though you te...nd to close issues as quickly as possible, you're more than willing to fight for your side if you need to. Careers of this style: Lawyers, Judges, Mediators, Arbitration, Brokers, Negotiators
NOTE:I really find these things sorta funny. That's why I wanna share 't with you guys. I'm trying to put up a good story here but I don't why it does not come out.(nagdadahilan...:/) Hope you'll just enjoy reading these stuff and try to comment back. It's Monday again...busy day for most of us.(naku!ba't ba ang baho dito sa net shop na napuntahan ko!)I need to go. I have a lotta things to do!(hiding the FACT na kelangan ko na ng oxygen para makahinga!ang bahoooooo!)xoxo
Friday, October 23, 2009
Living in 2009
I got this post and just wanna share to you guys:
YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2009 when...
1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2 You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.
8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : )
12 You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.
14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list
AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself.
1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2 You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.
8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : )
12 You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.
14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list
AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself.
my everyday @ a call center
I'm just 19 years young.(yes it's true..I'm telling you the WHOLE truth:).I'm supposedly finishing my degree but certain things happened so I'm a sort of having some adventures first here in Manila and would probably go back to continue studying.It'll be my 2nd month on the 21st in a call center here in Makati City and I find it really challenging but I'm having fun.I used to talk to different people(creatures I prefer!hehe) over the phone who pays for their bills,disputes abouts unexpected charges on their account,add and remove services,restore suspended accounts and the most I enjoy is to know how they live and compare on how we are here in the Philippines.
I got a call where she's asking for my surname.I told her my last name.And she asked me where is she calling from, I answered that she's calling in from the Philippines.And suddenly she told me that I steal her job.I don't feel harrased or embarrased but if you'll gonna hear a word "steal"?hell...But I was so patient that time and I said to her that I am not stealing anything from her.And it came to my brain(yes I have!;0) that yes,unconsciously,I stole her job.She used to work with the company that I am working with right now.And I know how it feels like being laid off from work and having difficulties on where to get income for living.
I am enjoying the feeling that I have a job right now but somehow I pity those who were laid off from their job in the U.S. coz their havin a hard time looking for sort of living and ways of generating income.She said,"I don't know why those companies from the US bring their business here in the Philippines where in fact the people living here(sa U.S.) needs job."I am ready to answer that: it's because they feel the difficulties giving the salary to them since it's dollars there.But it didn't voice out from my mouth.I just told her that if she'll be in my situation and she was offered with a job,would she not get it?
I am happy coz somehow I touch different lives of people.In so many cases that I influence the way they think.I don't know if we think the same but as far as my mind set is concerned,I think I really leave an impact, if not,'something' to them. I talk to them not just product wise but as well as comment on the way they live and the way their lives run. Sometimes I can't help but to let a certain call exceeds my average handling time coz of certain things like I ask them if there's anything else that I can do for them or sometimes tell them that I am so glad that I talked to them.**winks**
I was supposed to post the ~'a call center geek"must have"~ but as I checked on it here,it was gone. I remember that I saved it as a draft but unfortunately the only word left was "tumbler".Anyway,I'll try to finish it some other time and let you read it. But for now, let me just give you how my life runs everyday(every night!)ahaha
I got a call where she's asking for my surname.I told her my last name.And she asked me where is she calling from, I answered that she's calling in from the Philippines.And suddenly she told me that I steal her job.I don't feel harrased or embarrased but if you'll gonna hear a word "steal"?hell...But I was so patient that time and I said to her that I am not stealing anything from her.And it came to my brain(yes I have!;0) that yes,unconsciously,I stole her job.She used to work with the company that I am working with right now.And I know how it feels like being laid off from work and having difficulties on where to get income for living.
I am enjoying the feeling that I have a job right now but somehow I pity those who were laid off from their job in the U.S. coz their havin a hard time looking for sort of living and ways of generating income.She said,"I don't know why those companies from the US bring their business here in the Philippines where in fact the people living here(sa U.S.) needs job."I am ready to answer that: it's because they feel the difficulties giving the salary to them since it's dollars there.But it didn't voice out from my mouth.I just told her that if she'll be in my situation and she was offered with a job,would she not get it?
I am happy coz somehow I touch different lives of people.In so many cases that I influence the way they think.I don't know if we think the same but as far as my mind set is concerned,I think I really leave an impact, if not,'something' to them. I talk to them not just product wise but as well as comment on the way they live and the way their lives run. Sometimes I can't help but to let a certain call exceeds my average handling time coz of certain things like I ask them if there's anything else that I can do for them or sometimes tell them that I am so glad that I talked to them.**winks**
I was supposed to post the ~'a call center geek"must have"~ but as I checked on it here,it was gone. I remember that I saved it as a draft but unfortunately the only word left was "tumbler".Anyway,I'll try to finish it some other time and let you read it. But for now, let me just give you how my life runs everyday(every night!)ahaha
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
a little bit of everything
Well...as i read the book little prince yesterday, i came to realize one thing(well,it's on my mind prior to the date that i was reading the book)--that "What ia essential is invisible to the eye".I came up to be a grown-up since I was able to talk to older people.But I regret that I turned into a grown up having little great things in my mind(well,you might be confused,there's no such a GREAt little thing in this world--but now it has).I consider myself as a grown up coz I use to think as mature as grown up people.But still, look at me--still havin' that childish acts and insights in my words and acts.Well,let me just tell you pointers why now I consider myself as that little prince by Exuspery.
I'm a drunkard.Well,I used to drink.But drinking has nothing to do with this stuff.It just shows how people intend to forget things that they wanted to forget.By the meaning,it means somehow we want hurts to be out of our mind.We want bad things not to be part of our system.I'm like that too.I use to laugh...I use to smile..I use to show people how funny how I am...I use to let them know that it's cheerful in the outside but hurting in the inside.Well?It's natural that sometimes we just wanted to hide our emotions in a glass and throw it somewhere else where no one can find it.
I'm not a monarch.Well,basically a monarch does all the orders of the world.He has this capability to move everything through his words.I love the character of the monarch coz he seems to be fair to everyone in his world.He does not pass orders which aren't possible.He depends on what 'reality' means.Like he can't order a sun to set if it's daylight and he can't mandate to make money out of leaves.Something like that.Well,I'm a bit of like this monarch...I used to set things which I can reach.I don't put up goals which are untouchable.I mean those which aren't possible for me to achieve.Well,I have those lone term goals but as of the moment, I focus myself on the things which are happening--the present time.One said you should not be bothered by the past nor be conscious for the future...what matters most is how you deal with your present.
I'm not conceited.I don't why I included the "conceited" here..well,I just wanted you to realize how we become conceited at times.hehe.I don't consider myself as a conceited person,where in fact there are conceited pips around me.Those are the person who think they are the best of the bests, the richest of the rich, the handsomest of the handsome, and all the adjective in superlative form that they're brain could think of.**I don't really have time to exaggerate ideas here**
I am a flower.This has nothing to do with being feminine,well I consider myself as a flower coz of the word "friend".A flower is basically a flower...with petals,leaves,roots and other parts of a plant that a flower could've.But what makes it important?The way we tame it.It's like a friend coz at the beginning we can consider a flower as a single flower(let's use rose as an example).A rose will be the same as thise roses that we see. It's just that when we learn to water or plant a specific rose we became used to it.That rose became unique from the other flowers around.Same way with having a friend,at first we consider a friend as a single person--one of the people around the world.But as we learn how to talk with a friend,that person became unique.And eventually we started to have feelings of importance to him/her.And a time will come that we wanted to be always beside them.
I'm a drunkard.Well,I used to drink.But drinking has nothing to do with this stuff.It just shows how people intend to forget things that they wanted to forget.By the meaning,it means somehow we want hurts to be out of our mind.We want bad things not to be part of our system.I'm like that too.I use to laugh...I use to smile..I use to show people how funny how I am...I use to let them know that it's cheerful in the outside but hurting in the inside.Well?It's natural that sometimes we just wanted to hide our emotions in a glass and throw it somewhere else where no one can find it.
I'm not a monarch.Well,basically a monarch does all the orders of the world.He has this capability to move everything through his words.I love the character of the monarch coz he seems to be fair to everyone in his world.He does not pass orders which aren't possible.He depends on what 'reality' means.Like he can't order a sun to set if it's daylight and he can't mandate to make money out of leaves.Something like that.Well,I'm a bit of like this monarch...I used to set things which I can reach.I don't put up goals which are untouchable.I mean those which aren't possible for me to achieve.Well,I have those lone term goals but as of the moment, I focus myself on the things which are happening--the present time.One said you should not be bothered by the past nor be conscious for the future...what matters most is how you deal with your present.
I'm not conceited.I don't why I included the "conceited" here..well,I just wanted you to realize how we become conceited at times.hehe.I don't consider myself as a conceited person,where in fact there are conceited pips around me.Those are the person who think they are the best of the bests, the richest of the rich, the handsomest of the handsome, and all the adjective in superlative form that they're brain could think of.**I don't really have time to exaggerate ideas here**
I am a flower.This has nothing to do with being feminine,well I consider myself as a flower coz of the word "friend".A flower is basically a flower...with petals,leaves,roots and other parts of a plant that a flower could've.But what makes it important?The way we tame it.It's like a friend coz at the beginning we can consider a flower as a single flower(let's use rose as an example).A rose will be the same as thise roses that we see. It's just that when we learn to water or plant a specific rose we became used to it.That rose became unique from the other flowers around.Same way with having a friend,at first we consider a friend as a single person--one of the people around the world.But as we learn how to talk with a friend,that person became unique.And eventually we started to have feelings of importance to him/her.And a time will come that we wanted to be always beside them.
Monday, September 28, 2009
reming strikes again!
My fellow bicolanos may understand the way I state my post's title. I remembered the tragic scene brought by Reming way back November 2008 through Ondoy. I know it has nothing to do with my life coz I'm not affected by it but as I see the damages caused by Ondoy, a flash back of Reming reminded me of how difficult it was being in a situation where you are struggling for your life.
Likewise, overflowing water,mud,recked houses,separated households,and worst is -- lives taken away from people. We can't blame anyone for this tragic phenomena. It's nature. This just reminds us to save mother nature from depreciating. I may sound like an advocate here but it's true, let's try to save nature from being worst. I mean, we should let ourselves be the reason of stuff like flood,heavy rains, global warming,etc. If we will not make way to save it it will always be US who'll suffer the consequences. It is always us who will receive the dilemma once nature head back its revenge.
Anyway, I just had that side comment coz I an't really imagine how people from other part of Manila and other provinces suffer from Ondoy's force. While I am safe and sound, sleeping the whole weekend, folks were trying to save their way of living, their houses and most specially their lives.
Let me just tell you that I created this post 2 days -- 092809 & today 092909. I became lazy finishing this post yesterday coz of some reasons that I need to get off from using PC. Sometimes I'm like that -uhuh?not just sometimes,all the time-trying to leave things hanging. Anyway, atleast I somewhat changed coz I was able to finish this post.:)
Likewise, overflowing water,mud,recked houses,separated households,and worst is -- lives taken away from people. We can't blame anyone for this tragic phenomena. It's nature. This just reminds us to save mother nature from depreciating. I may sound like an advocate here but it's true, let's try to save nature from being worst. I mean, we should let ourselves be the reason of stuff like flood,heavy rains, global warming,etc. If we will not make way to save it it will always be US who'll suffer the consequences. It is always us who will receive the dilemma once nature head back its revenge.
Anyway, I just had that side comment coz I an't really imagine how people from other part of Manila and other provinces suffer from Ondoy's force. While I am safe and sound, sleeping the whole weekend, folks were trying to save their way of living, their houses and most specially their lives.
Let me just tell you that I created this post 2 days -- 092809 & today 092909. I became lazy finishing this post yesterday coz of some reasons that I need to get off from using PC. Sometimes I'm like that -uhuh?not just sometimes,all the time-trying to leave things hanging. Anyway, atleast I somewhat changed coz I was able to finish this post.:)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
why would i blog again?
I just decided a minute ago to post a topic again to this blog. I tried not to and I stopped before but now here I go again. One major reason is jub's blog, I dont know why but as I read those posts from poot I come to realize that its not good to blame a blog posts to ruin a plan. I don't know. When I had my biggest down fall way back June2009, I blame this stupid blog. If only this blog has history system on it, you may find out the reason but alas for coz it doesnt.
I'm working now in a call center. Some people say its good coz I earn more than a public employee could get. But for me? It's toxic. I just enjoy the feeling of having the job that other person is aiming, is wishing, to have and ofcourse the "bucks" that I get from it. I enjoy it but I always come to think that this is not what I dreamed. This is not what I longed or wished to have. This is not where should I be working at. This sucks and I get rid of those bull**** customers that are calling and calling you ridiculous.
I'm sorry to dissapoin you about the call center field. But its true. It's just a matter of having the courage to go to work every night and wearing those gadgets and converse with people you don't even know. But honestly speaking, I am enjoying it. I told myself that Ill be good at it. I told myself that I'm here coz I'm way different from other people. I'm here to discover new things that I'm not used to do before. I'm trying to live a more complicated independent life.
SO,why would I blog again? It's because blogging is now my bff. I don't have with me my friends. They're miles away. And even if I text or call them every day, I can't still express out what I feel every other day...every other hour or minute.Oh, I'm being too personal with this post. Don't worry, I'll try to post some interesting topics during my spare time.:)
I'm working now in a call center. Some people say its good coz I earn more than a public employee could get. But for me? It's toxic. I just enjoy the feeling of having the job that other person is aiming, is wishing, to have and ofcourse the "bucks" that I get from it. I enjoy it but I always come to think that this is not what I dreamed. This is not what I longed or wished to have. This is not where should I be working at. This sucks and I get rid of those bull**** customers that are calling and calling you ridiculous.
I'm sorry to dissapoin you about the call center field. But its true. It's just a matter of having the courage to go to work every night and wearing those gadgets and converse with people you don't even know. But honestly speaking, I am enjoying it. I told myself that Ill be good at it. I told myself that I'm here coz I'm way different from other people. I'm here to discover new things that I'm not used to do before. I'm trying to live a more complicated independent life.
SO,why would I blog again? It's because blogging is now my bff. I don't have with me my friends. They're miles away. And even if I text or call them every day, I can't still express out what I feel every other day...every other hour or minute.Oh, I'm being too personal with this post. Don't worry, I'll try to post some interesting topics during my spare time.:)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
speaK uP!
How would one understand if the person you talk is impaired! Guys--this is the real LOL. I just can't help it. I can't do anything but LAUGH OUT LOUD!
I just wanted to share you guys on how enunciating will help putting up a good conversation. I got the attention of all the people right herein because of this stuff!
"ENUNCIATE has nothing to do with physical contact..."--joker
Source:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2yv8aT0UFc
I just wanted to share you guys on how enunciating will help putting up a good conversation. I got the attention of all the people right herein because of this stuff!
"ENUNCIATE has nothing to do with physical contact..."--joker
Source:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2yv8aT0UFc
Saturday, June 27, 2009
caf
How does it feel having a runny nose(34km/h velocity) itchy throat?Well, it's a strange feeling having these two. I wanted to let them feel unwelcome but they really stick to me for a week now. I already consulted a genius friend on what-the-hell is happening to my throat and my nose. He advised me to take med but it seems that it gets worst time after time. And exclusively right as this moment as I type this post, I can't help but BARK.
I'm in a computer shop having 19'c aircon on and there are pips right here beside me. I don't want them to suffer so I used a hanky to mask my mouth.(fuck these mosquitoes right here in!blood suckers!go to hell!)God!I already changed my mood -- I am feeling melo dramatic for I have found out that the King of Pop passed away last thursday and all the Filipinos here and abroad are sad about it. I don't feel anything about this stuff, it's just that I can't help but give my opinion 'bout him everytime my friends talk about "hollywood".
Back to my real topic, I am thankful because atleast these *ucking cough and runny nose gave me some advantage. It keeps me away from cigars. Well, I decided not to puff for it might worsen what I am suffering right now. Anyway, I'll just use it the very time I got healed.
I'm in a computer shop having 19'c aircon on and there are pips right here beside me. I don't want them to suffer so I used a hanky to mask my mouth.(fuck these mosquitoes right here in!blood suckers!go to hell!)God!I already changed my mood -- I am feeling melo dramatic for I have found out that the King of Pop passed away last thursday and all the Filipinos here and abroad are sad about it. I don't feel anything about this stuff, it's just that I can't help but give my opinion 'bout him everytime my friends talk about "hollywood".
Back to my real topic, I am thankful because atleast these *ucking cough and runny nose gave me some advantage. It keeps me away from cigars. Well, I decided not to puff for it might worsen what I am suffering right now. Anyway, I'll just use it the very time I got healed.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
My First Ever Job Interview
I enrolled in a Call-Center Training course last summer for me to have some part time job "income" this school year. I learned a lot from it, from the basic things you should be familiar about the Call Center Business to the add-on(s) of the training. I was able to have the American accent and I was reviewed by my past lessons way back in HS like subject-verb agreement and putting up a good communication with another person. Not only that, the training let me experience my very first job interview. Dave(my mentor) gave us tips on how to answer those trap questions in an interview and so I became confident in facing the three interviewers. They are from Gen Pact Philippines - one of the fastest growing call centers in the country situated in Alabang, Muntinlupa City. To recap the interview I had, here's the Q&A of it:
1. Mark, you are a BS Mathematics student. What are the things you are to teach to your students after graduation?
A.I'll be focusing on Math genres like Algebra, Calculus and other Math related subjects.
2.Do you have any hobby? What is it?
A.I don't prefer physical activities, I do blogging.
1. Mark, you are a BS Mathematics student. What are the things you are to teach to your students after graduation?
A.I'll be focusing on Math genres like Algebra, Calculus and other Math related subjects.
2.Do you have any hobby? What is it?
A.I don't prefer physical activities, I do blogging.
3. What do you usually blog?
A.Anything under the sun. Like things that I just recently do and things that I can not express verbally.
--that ends the very easy initial interview--
Here's the final one:
1.If you were given the chance to be with a famous person, who would that be and why?
A.If I would be given the chance to be with a famous person, that would be Barack Obama. I would have the opportunity to ask him what are his principles and ways on governing a popular and rich state like USA. I would have the chance to ask him how does it feel being the first black president of one of the richest nation around. In that way, I can tell it to our own president in order for her to get some hint on how to be a good, if not, better president.
I forgot the other two but I promise to quote it on my next post.
Monday, June 1, 2009
past
It's so hard to accept that someone has gone. Especially when you used to be with her and you used to feel her presence upon waking up until closing your eyes to sleep. We can not deny that everything will come to its end. It is just that it's so hard to think that those you treasure most will soon disappear.
I'm being too sentimental. I'm not used to it but give me this precious moment to thank my mom. Maybe it's too late--yes it is. That is why I let you know how it feels missing someone who will not come back forever. It has been a year now but I feel like it's just yesterday when she left us. I still remember how she talk, laugh, smile, whistle, walk... everything about her. I remembered one scene that I told her that I will be the one to nurse her when she gets old.
How I wish I could turn back time. I just wish I could really turn the arms of the clock. If only I could... Do you want to know how I feel? I feel like my nerves will burst out. I feel teary and I want to scream. I want to scream how painful it is being alone and having no one to talk to during times of confusion. I miss you Nay..
I'm being too sentimental. I'm not used to it but give me this precious moment to thank my mom. Maybe it's too late--yes it is. That is why I let you know how it feels missing someone who will not come back forever. It has been a year now but I feel like it's just yesterday when she left us. I still remember how she talk, laugh, smile, whistle, walk... everything about her. I remembered one scene that I told her that I will be the one to nurse her when she gets old.
How I wish I could turn back time. I just wish I could really turn the arms of the clock. If only I could... Do you want to know how I feel? I feel like my nerves will burst out. I feel teary and I want to scream. I want to scream how painful it is being alone and having no one to talk to during times of confusion. I miss you Nay..
Friday, May 29, 2009
him
I think he knows me. I just don't know if he likes, he'll like and he LIKED me. :) I became too curious on how he stare and on how I feel the time our eyes met up 180 degrees. I feel something that is 'super natural' among us. That's why I need to know how will that 'unnatural' thing will work after I sent an add request for him on friendster. I know you're too curious also on who's I am talking about. Well, to give you some hint-- here's his pic:
:) I just wish I have the courage to talk to him. I know I'll have the confidence soon. I started yesterday taking pieces of KM capsule. Wah!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Changed...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Ten Fast Fingers
This is what I got from 10-fast-fingers.com a while ago. To be named as a good encoder... you should've atleast typed forty words a minute. Well, I have achieved my goal.*winks*
It's really an edge for those who are'nt know or not good in typing. Hehe
Friday, March 20, 2009
Cheesiest Love Quotes Ever!~
Isipin mo na lang, parehas tayong umiyak, parehas tayong nasaktan, at parehas tayong nahirapan. pero bakit ganon? sa huli, sino lang yung natira? ako lang di ba?
Kung mahal mo raw, ipaglaban mo. totoo ba yon? paano kung hindi ka niya mahal? anong ipaglalaban mo? isang pag-ibig na ikaw lang ang nakakadama? mahirap yata yon ah!!! kaya mo ba? pero pag mahal mo talaga, kakayanin mo di ba?
Sana pag nakita mo na yung taong mahal mo, huwag kang magpakatanga, wag kang magpakamartir, wag kang magpakagago...ayokong makitang nahihirapan ka...tignan mo nangyari sa akin nung minahal kita....
Paano mo malalaman kung mahal ka niya? Simple lang....tumalon ka tapos sigaw mong mahal mo siya, pero kung di ka niya sasaluhin, wag kang mag-alala, ano ba'ng silbi ko? di ba tagasalo pag wala siya?
Sana akin ka para di ka iiyak. sana akin ka para di ka na masasaktan. sana akin ka para di ka na aasa pa. ngunit ang talagang nais ko'y Sana ako siya na minahal mo ng sobra sobra.
Minsan ang layo ng tingin mo. Sino ba'ng hinahanap mo? yun tao bang magmamahal sayo? yan ang hirap sayo eh! ang layo lagi ng tingin mo, ang tagal ko na dito...di ba pwedeng sa kin ka naman tumingin?
Iniwan kita di dahil ayoko na sayo. tinalikuran kita di dahil galit ako sayo, lumayo ako di dahil ayaw na kitang makita, umalis lang ako kasi ayaw ko nang umiyak habang nakikita kang masaya...sa piling niya.
Mahirap umasa sa wala. Mahirap magmahal sa taong may ibang mahal. Mahirap ipagtanggol ang taong walang paki sa nararamdaman mo...at higit sa lahat, mahirap masaktan ng wala kang karapatan.
Sabi mo di ka nanghihinayang na nawala siya sa'yo...o nagsisisi na iniwan ka niya, sa totoo lang, hindi ako naniniwala, dahil nakatulog ka'ng lumuluha sa tabi ko, habang pabulong kong sinasabi, "ako kaya iiyakan mo?"
Kahit gaano kasakit? ok lang mahal kita eh. mas minahal kita nung sinaktan mo ko. ang labo ko rin no? martir ako eh...tanga pa. pero alam mo, marunong din akong masaktan.
Masakit maging kaibigan ng taong mahal mo. hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar di ka dapat umasa o di kaya mainis sa kanya....bakit... anong karapatan mo? KAIBIGAN ka lang di ba?
Inisip ko andaya mo, kasi nangako ka di mo ako iiwan, pero minsan iniisip ko kung ano mas madaya… Yung iwan mo ako? O yung pinilit kitang mangako?
Kahit nasasaktan ang isang tao pinipilit pa rin nya magmahal... BAKIT??? dahil ang puso puwede mong sugatan pero di mo kayang turuan, patuloy itong titibok at patuloy na magmamahal...
Sabi nila totoo daw na nagkakatotoo ang wish sa falling star. siguro, di ko na-try...pero kagabi may nakita akong isa, di ko pinansin, kasi alam ko nandyan ka na...ano pa'ng hahanapin ko?...wala na di ba?(~here's my favorite quote!)
I had a dream, you left me daw, so i cried kse you mean so much to me and i never want to lose you. i felt weird when i woke up because naalala ko, i never had you nga pala...
If someone asks you, “anong pangalan nya?” don’t answer, just say “di ko alam” even if you do. Coz you may become their bridge and someday you’ll say “sana di ko na lang sya pinakilala, ako dapat mahal nya”.
Magulo talaga ang mundo pag gusto mo; ayaw sayo; pag gusto ka; ayaw mo; pero ang masakit; gusto mo; gusto ka; pero.... di pwedeng maging kayo...=c
Gusto mo ba malaman kung ano ka sa kanya? sorry ha, di ko alam e! pero alam ko kung sno ka sakin, ikaw yung tipong "WaLA LANG" parang pag na "WaLA" ka sa buhay ko, ikakamatay ko "LANG"
Sabi nila..pag di ka makatulog may nagiisip sayo,may nagwowori, at sigurado, yung taong yun miss ka nya,ksya pag di ka makatulog,sori ha!! di ko mapigilan e, namiss kita
I often wonder why things didn't work for the both of us.. patience?... meron.. time?, meron din...trust of course!.. love? sobra sobra!! pero teka. was it ever the both us o ako lang?!
Kumatok ka sa puso ko, pinatuloy kita. pero kinuha mo ang susi nito at umalis ka na lang bigla. tanong ko lang, "Babalik ka pa ba?", di na kasi mabuksan ng iba...='c
Everyone needs someone to be with, but often, they try to choose the best...I may not be the best among them, but I promise not to leave you...aalis lang ako pag sinabi mong "_____, di na kita kailangan..."
If i were to convert my heart into a room full of my loved one, it will be very crowded. but don't worry, there's still a place for you to stay at the center...i'll shout..."tabi kayo! honey ko dyan!"
Kung mahal mo raw, ipaglaban mo. totoo ba yon? paano kung hindi ka niya mahal? anong ipaglalaban mo? isang pag-ibig na ikaw lang ang nakakadama? mahirap yata yon ah!!! kaya mo ba? pero pag mahal mo talaga, kakayanin mo di ba?
Sana pag nakita mo na yung taong mahal mo, huwag kang magpakatanga, wag kang magpakamartir, wag kang magpakagago...ayokong makitang nahihirapan ka...tignan mo nangyari sa akin nung minahal kita....
Paano mo malalaman kung mahal ka niya? Simple lang....tumalon ka tapos sigaw mong mahal mo siya, pero kung di ka niya sasaluhin, wag kang mag-alala, ano ba'ng silbi ko? di ba tagasalo pag wala siya?
Sana akin ka para di ka iiyak. sana akin ka para di ka na masasaktan. sana akin ka para di ka na aasa pa. ngunit ang talagang nais ko'y Sana ako siya na minahal mo ng sobra sobra.
Minsan ang layo ng tingin mo. Sino ba'ng hinahanap mo? yun tao bang magmamahal sayo? yan ang hirap sayo eh! ang layo lagi ng tingin mo, ang tagal ko na dito...di ba pwedeng sa kin ka naman tumingin?
Iniwan kita di dahil ayoko na sayo. tinalikuran kita di dahil galit ako sayo, lumayo ako di dahil ayaw na kitang makita, umalis lang ako kasi ayaw ko nang umiyak habang nakikita kang masaya...sa piling niya.
Mahirap umasa sa wala. Mahirap magmahal sa taong may ibang mahal. Mahirap ipagtanggol ang taong walang paki sa nararamdaman mo...at higit sa lahat, mahirap masaktan ng wala kang karapatan.
Sabi mo di ka nanghihinayang na nawala siya sa'yo...o nagsisisi na iniwan ka niya, sa totoo lang, hindi ako naniniwala, dahil nakatulog ka'ng lumuluha sa tabi ko, habang pabulong kong sinasabi, "ako kaya iiyakan mo?"
Kahit gaano kasakit? ok lang mahal kita eh. mas minahal kita nung sinaktan mo ko. ang labo ko rin no? martir ako eh...tanga pa. pero alam mo, marunong din akong masaktan.
Masakit maging kaibigan ng taong mahal mo. hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar di ka dapat umasa o di kaya mainis sa kanya....bakit... anong karapatan mo? KAIBIGAN ka lang di ba?
Inisip ko andaya mo, kasi nangako ka di mo ako iiwan, pero minsan iniisip ko kung ano mas madaya… Yung iwan mo ako? O yung pinilit kitang mangako?
Kahit nasasaktan ang isang tao pinipilit pa rin nya magmahal... BAKIT??? dahil ang puso puwede mong sugatan pero di mo kayang turuan, patuloy itong titibok at patuloy na magmamahal...
Sabi nila totoo daw na nagkakatotoo ang wish sa falling star. siguro, di ko na-try...pero kagabi may nakita akong isa, di ko pinansin, kasi alam ko nandyan ka na...ano pa'ng hahanapin ko?...wala na di ba?(~here's my favorite quote!)
I had a dream, you left me daw, so i cried kse you mean so much to me and i never want to lose you. i felt weird when i woke up because naalala ko, i never had you nga pala...
If someone asks you, “anong pangalan nya?” don’t answer, just say “di ko alam” even if you do. Coz you may become their bridge and someday you’ll say “sana di ko na lang sya pinakilala, ako dapat mahal nya”.
Magulo talaga ang mundo pag gusto mo; ayaw sayo; pag gusto ka; ayaw mo; pero ang masakit; gusto mo; gusto ka; pero.... di pwedeng maging kayo...=c
Gusto mo ba malaman kung ano ka sa kanya? sorry ha, di ko alam e! pero alam ko kung sno ka sakin, ikaw yung tipong "WaLA LANG" parang pag na "WaLA" ka sa buhay ko, ikakamatay ko "LANG"
Sabi nila..pag di ka makatulog may nagiisip sayo,may nagwowori, at sigurado, yung taong yun miss ka nya,ksya pag di ka makatulog,sori ha!! di ko mapigilan e, namiss kita
I often wonder why things didn't work for the both of us.. patience?... meron.. time?, meron din...trust of course!.. love? sobra sobra!! pero teka. was it ever the both us o ako lang?!
Kumatok ka sa puso ko, pinatuloy kita. pero kinuha mo ang susi nito at umalis ka na lang bigla. tanong ko lang, "Babalik ka pa ba?", di na kasi mabuksan ng iba...='c
Everyone needs someone to be with, but often, they try to choose the best...I may not be the best among them, but I promise not to leave you...aalis lang ako pag sinabi mong "_____, di na kita kailangan..."
If i were to convert my heart into a room full of my loved one, it will be very crowded. but don't worry, there's still a place for you to stay at the center...i'll shout..."tabi kayo! honey ko dyan!"
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Why Do We Fall in Love?
"It is better to have loft and lost than to never have loft at all." — Groucho Marx
Q: What motivates people to seek out love?Falling in love is a magical experience that happens between two people. So why do people fall in love?
A: Our primary motivation as human beings is to expand the self and to increase our abilities and our effectiveness. One of the ways we accomplish this is through our relationships with other people. We have learned in our research that it is important to feel that you have the ability to be an effective person, especially in our relationships.
Q: How does this theory of self-expansion explain the process of falling in love?
A: Usually, we fall in love with a person that we find attractive and appropriate for us, but also someone who demonstrates that they are attracted to us. This creates a situation where a great opportunity is open to us for self-expansion. The fact that they are attracted to us offers a significant opportunity — when we perceive this, we feel a surge of exhilaration!
Q: Does it always work this way?
A: No, an interesting exception to this occurs if we feel badly about ourselves. The process gets thrown off if we can't believe that another persons finds us attractive — like the Groucho Marx joke where we don't want to belong to a club that would have us for a member. We tend to miss out on opportunities for falling in love if we don't feel good about ourselves.
Q: What conditions are best for meeting someone and falling in love?
A: When you meet someone under conditions that are highly arousing — a political demonstration, turbulence on a plane, a stimulating performance — a time when the body is stirred up and excited, we tend to experience attraction at a heightened level. This effect is well documented but the explanations for it are very controversial. I tend to believe that we come to associate the arousal of the situation with this person and our own self-expansion.
Q: When do we fall in love?
A: Contrary to what most people think, the statistics show that most people fall in love with someone that they have known for a while. People only report falling in love quickly about 1/3 to 40 percent of the time. Of course, this varies from culture to culture. Falling in love happens differently between cultures but it does occur in most cultures.
Q: How does our appearance factor into the equation of falling in love?
A: This is interesting; we have found that if you are very unattractive, it can hurt you a lot in forming romantic relationships. However, being attractive doesn't help that much.
Q: How do you explain that?
A: We have found that two important characteristics, kindness and intelligence, are extremely important in the process of falling in love. And attractiveness is not connected to these things. These two attributes are things that people learn about someone from knowing them over time. Intelligence is important in all aspects of life, especially in love. But kindness is the strongest indicator for a successful long-term relationship.
Q:Why do we need to fall in love if we just end up crying?
A:(answer ain't yet known)
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